aw you wanna make me cry with happy don’t you.
21 May 2013 / 1 note
1. What would you name your future daughter?
There’s a few names I really like. Alice, Laurel, Kira.
2: Do you miss anyone?
Of course I do.
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
I’d tell you I got it from my mama.
25: Do you use chap stick?
Baby Lips is actually the most amazing thing.
26: Who did you last share a bed with?
Ahh, I can’t remember. I sleep over at friend’s places really often.
29: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
Nope. But all of them were horrible mistakes.
50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
Probably not, it was a pedophiliac hobo.
20 May 2013 / 1 note
how could u not with a face like this
in any case this is how i like to get down.
i hope you’re prepared for that.
15 May 2013 / 6 notes
Anxiety is the only thing I’ve been diagnosed with.
But as both sides of my family are heavily infested with depression (both of my parents, and each of their parents) it’s most likely I’ve got something of the sort as well. But I don’t really have anything to compare it to. Maybe most people don’t feel how I do, but this is what I’m used to, and there’s a strong possibility that this is just a normal way to feel and I’m just not good at handling it. I think I was tested for depression in 5th grade or so. Can’t remember the results. But my parents were going through an unpleasant divorce at the time, so it seems normal to feel like shit.
I also forgot until recently that I have a learning disability. It has to do with sequencing. I actually completely forgot about it until my mom brought it up in relation to my grades in school. I don’t get an help with it though. I really don’t know anything about it.
I’ve also been tested for an eating disorder but everything wrong with me has just been attributed to anxiety, so no diagnosis, as well as not meeting the weight criteria even at my lowest.
12 May 2013 / 0 notes
12 May 2013 / 0 notes
1. Always post the rules.
2. Answer the questions the person tagged you and write 11 new questions. (new questions at the end!)
3. Tag 11 new people and link them to the post.
4. Let them know you tagged them.
1. What do you call yourself?
I live through my body I don’t need to call myself anything what oh Joelle
2. Are you satisfied with your life? If so, Why? If not, Why?
Well, like. I’m alive so that’s already pretty good I guess. But things could be better. I really need to grow the fuck up.
3. What is your credo?
4. What is the meaning of life?
A Monty Python film.
5. Do you have soul?If so, are you super bad?
Ugh souls well. I don’t know whether the soul exists or not. That already makes this difficult. But I don’t think good/bad exist either, so…
6. If you acquired a super power based on your greatest strength and your tragic flaw, what would it be and why?
Being invisible would work for both of those, I guess.
7. Top 5 Favorite Hip-Hop artists?
8. Who currently is the object of your affection? Talk about them ^_^
9. Would you sacrifice yourself to save everyone else in the world? Explain your reasoning
Meh. I’d rather be the only one dead than the only one alive.
10. How old do you feel?
Terribly young and with all the traits that go with it.
11. How are you?
Exhausted, keeping anxiety down.
1. What kind of music do you like?
A good variety including heavy metal, witch house, atmospheric noise, misc.
2. whats more important to you in a friendship entertainment or comfort?
Comfort. I don’t often get bored, I’ll stare at the ceiling for hours if I’m comfortable.
3. do you like night time or day time better?
Oh, I fucking hate daytime.
4. what is your favorite body part?
5. do you feel like you have people to talk to?
I “do”, but I don’t.
6. what is intelligence to you?
Intellectual > Academic.
7. if you could talk to anyone in the world who would you talk to and what would you talk to them about?
Anyone who can properly tell me how the fuck to function like a regular person.
8. favorite smell? texture? sound?
Vanilla extract, cat fluff or skin, girls weeping.
9. if you could learn any language what would you learn?
Ugh, french would be convenient but Nordic would be so badass.
10. Has anything new happened to you?
11. Do you care for astrology?
T’is bullshit but yes.
And I’m too lazy to tag people so if you’re reading this just do it, yeah.
8 May 2013 / 0 notes
A small hard candy + very small bite of brownie (weed edibles if it isn’t obvious) around 2:30PM, and a puff of a joint around 3PM. Like. Hardly anything. But I hadn’t eaten that day and I’ve only gotten high 3 times prior to that. Lasted about… Well, I threw up around 6PM, went home and slept on-and off for most of the rest of my high… I’d say it lasted till around 9-10PM.
I haven’t read up much about hallucinogens and anxiety. Curiosity is absolutely natural.
21 Apr 2013 / 0 notes
Thaaank you. And honestly, if you want to dye your hair but you want to maintain not looking like a rascal, upping the maturity of your clothing choices helps a lot. Like. Wearing really professional shirts and blazers and skirts and such. And even if you don’t do this, just keep up your hygiene and continue being nice to people. Any stereotyping they’ve done because of your hair should quickly evaporate.
With my hair standing out, it’s generally what I think of as a good thing. It can catch people off-guard and it makes them happy. People think of me very differently, for better or worse, but honestly I don’t think it’s just the hair, it’s the collection of hair + piercings + clothing. I get followed around in stores a lot because people think I’m lifting. Police come talk to me and my group of friends more often than less stand-outish people would.
And yes, dye your hair if it’s what you want! Be careful not to damage it but honestly my hair’s fried but I’m still happy, so. People can tell when you’re making yourself more happy in your skin through the way you express yourself, it’s always nice to see.
21 Apr 2013 / 0 notes
Red Light - Karkwa!. Top comment, holla.
19 Apr 2013 / 0 notes
19 Apr 2013 / 0 notes
Ah, don’t randomly kiss him, telling him is a lot more respectful of personal space, heh. Personally, even if I liked someone, if I didn’t know whether they liked me or not and they out-of-the-blue tried to kiss me, even though I liked them I’d be like NO THERE WAS NO WARNING WHAT’S GOING ON WHAT ARE YOU DOING. Personally. Just be awaaaare.
It’s definitely better to talk to him. But as a coward I would never do either of those things. I say find a mutual friend that you both trust enough to confide in, and ask them to ask him about you, or have them comment on how cute you guys are and see how he responds. Then get the deets.
10 Apr 2013 / 1 note